Getting to Know Me

Hi everybody!

This is the very first blog written by myself, Kali Marshall. I am here to talk to you about parenting and life in itself. Hopefully I can do some good by writing these things and letting you guys get to know me.

I grew up in a small town in Missouri. I lived in a troubled environment where my mom was a meth addict and my father was a mentally and emotionally abusive person. Thankfully my mother got clean over ten years ago and I have an amazing relationship with her now. My father is a different story and I am going to go ahead and say that he will be the subject of at least some of my posts on here.

I lived with my father from the time I was in second grade until I was able to move out of his house and in with a friends mother in high school. Soon after I did that I was legally emancipated from both of my parents. Because of my childhood with my father I have now grown up to have a horrible slew of mental health issues. I know right, this is soooo taboo to talk about! It needs to happen though. We need to talk about how the mother that loves her children with all of her heart can be severely depressed, have crippling anxiety, have zero self esteem,  trust absolutely no one, have an off and on eating disorder and the worst for last, battle with suicidal tendencies.

Now please read this carefully, I DO NOT NEED ANYONE’S SYMPATHY. I am here today typing all of this up so that hopefully I can help someone who may be going through the same things.

All of these issues that I have mentioned that I have are not typically talked about in open conversation. They need to be. We need to be able to reach out to those around us for help, without judgement. We need to be able to effectively educate the people around us about mental health disorders and how normal appearing people can have them. Productive members of society can have them. We need to not shame someone for coming out and talking about the problems that a large percentage of people in our world have.

That is something I have had to come to terms with. I can not be ashamed of saying “I feel suicidal today, I need help”, “I feel very depressed today, I need help”, “I am having an anxiety attack, I need help”, “I have an eating disorder, I need help”, “I am a victim of gas lighting, I need help”.  We need to make even the strangers on the street feel like if they needed to come to your door and ask you for help, you would help. Now I do not completely know how to do this but I am hoping that by educating and sharing my story it will start the process.

Anyway these deep topics are what most of my material will be about and I hope you like reading them!

Please remember that if you, or anyone you know needs help there are hotlines you can call!!!